But alas, I'm off meds so I made a couple of resolutions to lessen my anxiety, routines are actually really good for that. Routines and sedatives. I kid.
Resolution #1- Stop drinking coffee like it's water.
I think I've built up a tolerance for caffeine. I need to get down to a cup or two of coffee a day at the most, and I need to stop mixing in the sugar for that extra burst of energy. Too many crashes.
Resolution #2- Keep the weight on.
I write this more as an awkward confession than anything, but I've had a couple uncomfortable conversations with doctors involving my fertility. I was under the impression that my weight was fine, but the bottom line is that if I ever hope to have another baby, I have to stay at a weight that is uncomfortable for me. Setting aside all of the tangents that can stem from that statement, I recently sucked it up and gained 10 lbs.
Now, I accept that only certain people in my life can understand that it is not stone cold narcissism that holds me back... It's complicated.
And I'm not going to pretend it's easy.
But I've made the resolution to try as hard as I can to keep this weight on...2013 here I come?
And finally, Resolution # 3- Facebook less, blog more.
I recently read a couple scholarly articles about the effects of social networking on the average person. Turns out, facebook actually makes people sad. I admit it has the power to make me completely insecure. One look at how wonderful everything is for everyone at any given moment does have the ability to make me wonder if I am okay. Am I doing it wrong???? But then I unplug and everything is okay again. So I've been checking in once a day rather than 20, and taking one day a week off from finding out what everyone ate for breakfast. It's already freed up some serious time!
So yeah. That's it.
Resolution #2- Keep the weight on.
I write this more as an awkward confession than anything, but I've had a couple uncomfortable conversations with doctors involving my fertility. I was under the impression that my weight was fine, but the bottom line is that if I ever hope to have another baby, I have to stay at a weight that is uncomfortable for me. Setting aside all of the tangents that can stem from that statement, I recently sucked it up and gained 10 lbs.
Now, I accept that only certain people in my life can understand that it is not stone cold narcissism that holds me back... It's complicated.
And I'm not going to pretend it's easy.
But I've made the resolution to try as hard as I can to keep this weight on...2013 here I come?
And finally, Resolution # 3- Facebook less, blog more.
I recently read a couple scholarly articles about the effects of social networking on the average person. Turns out, facebook actually makes people sad. I admit it has the power to make me completely insecure. One look at how wonderful everything is for everyone at any given moment does have the ability to make me wonder if I am okay. Am I doing it wrong???? But then I unplug and everything is okay again. So I've been checking in once a day rather than 20, and taking one day a week off from finding out what everyone ate for breakfast. It's already freed up some serious time!
So yeah. That's it.
